A year has passed

The day that was : 3rd January 2012


As cliché as it may sound, I am amazed at how time yet again executed its bullet-train speed and whizzed past me just like that.

I didn’t even have time to sit back and analyse at what I have done and things that have yet to be accomplished for the past year and today here I am, back to work after a few days break and the first thing that greeted me was a slew of outstanding assignments and deadlines to be met.

It’s left me with literally no time to ponder about the past nor take a little peak into the future.
Perhaps this is how things should work. You just need to focus on the presence and the rest will slowly but re-assuredly fall into place.

But a quick rewind would afford me little recollection of any personal endeavour worthy of a mention.
The past year, I have sold my brand new blackberry hand phone, given to me as a gift from someone, for RM1,400, and used up all the money in a mere few months to save some precious tiny lives (some other sentient, fragile little beings which we humans tend to take for granted).

It might appear trivial but I found solace from this little effort.

I have also earned a few hundreds from selling some of my new clothes in Mudah.com, an online selling site and would use the money for the same purpose.

When I first started this blog, I only wanted to put down my thoughts in here as a diary to serve me at times when memories fail me. I honestly did not know what a blog was until my niece wrote me an email in April 2009 while I was in a foreign country saying she had started a blog and asked me to check out some photos she had put in there during the Xing Ming festival ( the only time I had missed the annual activity with closed family members, and I had missed home dearly) and it was only when I came back here when the thought came to me that I might as well start a blog of my own.

Now it has been more than 18 months since my first posting. How just time flies (sigh).
I have shared this blog with a few closed friends including family members but they seemed to be always too occupied and have been engrossed in dealing with what’s real and more important in lives.

And I understand.

It’s ok I told one of them (a close friend who seemed apologetic, smiles) for I seldom have the time to sit down here and write also. This is after all a personal journal which only serves my purpose. I have a face book account but it remains inactive up till these days.

I still prefer and am happy to receive an email from friends, for it seems to me these are more sincere, and personal, rather than some FB postings.

A friend sent an email and SMS message from abroad today saying she would send some money to repay the amount that she owed me, expressing her gratitude for extending help when she was in need. She asked to please do not hesitate to approach her should I need a favour from her in the future, and has in fact remitted more than what she owed to show her gratitude. This gesture has pretty much warmed my heart. I reassured her I would put the money to good use.

For the coming year, I pray for good health so I can continue to work for a living. And a happy frame of mind. The past year has seen me slipping in and out from unhappy dwellings ,once too often indulging my self in thoughts which would only serve to diminish my self-esteem, and ultimately, self- worth .

And to love and give, in whatever small way I can.

I would take a shot of courage and make one decision that may forever change the course of my path, hence my life.

But it has never been easy.

Let’s just see how much more time I may need to finally reach that decision.

In the mean time, I just want to live in the now.

In 2011, I let go of this thing..

and a few others.
In 2012, I ushered in the new year by taking part in an activity like this.
A random photo of a dear colleague and me who dressed up as Cleopatra for our Annual Dinner Costume Night at the end of the year.